A new year, a new outlook

Wow!! What a way to end a year.. In the arms of the one I love. :) She sacraficed her sleep so we could be together to celebrate New Years twice he he. I couldn't ask for a more caring, loving, funny, naughty, romantic, commited woman even if I tried. I am still in awe of this woman. The passion she exudes, the love she shares, the way she has cared for me.. I.. Wish I could convey how much she has changed my life. I never in a million years thought I wanted to 'Feel' again.. It is just too painful... Banana.. I think that's how you spell that..Oh sorry.. My daughter just ask me how to spell it :P Anyways, I really was done with love.. I have had my heart broken too many times, and just didn't want to subject myself to the pain anymore.. But then out of nowhere, came Danielle.. A chance encounter? I don't think it was.. I was hurting.. Had been for quite some time.. I tried to hide it, but it was there.. I lied to myself.. Saying everything was ok.. It wasn't.. But I was too scared to admit it.. Then it happened.. It was over..
I went to a place I had not been to in along time.. Not sure where I was going or why.. I was lost, broken.. I sat there , listening to people talk.. Just listening.. I knew I had nothing fun to interject.. But then out of the corner of my eye, I saw a woman.. chatting with her friend about .. I can't remember now.. I was mezmorized.. All I remember was her saying something about UK time or something.. I just sat there, watching her.. her words lighting up the conversation.. everyone having a good time. As the night went on, everybody left, and I found myself alone with her.. I was afraid to even say hello.. Afraid I would blurt out something to offend her.. I was in no state to say anything.. But.. I had to.. I had to make her notice me.. I so needed to talk.. Talk to someone who didn't already have an opinion of what had been going on in my life.. Finally I mustered the courage to say hello.. she said hello back.. lol go figure huh.. I don't know what I thought she was going to say.. And like a weight had been lifted I felt totally at ease.. I just started spilling my guts to her.. She was so kind.. never once criticising me, or laughing at me.. she was totally focused on what I was saying, I knew then, there was something there.. A complete stranger.. listening to a poor sap, who had had enough.. She comforted me, and even made me laugh... She sent some poor noob to xcite island to go play for tips.. I laughed so hard at that, and will never ever forget that. We talked for awhile, and then she had to go.. I thanked her for just being there, and she was gone.. I thought that would be the last time I saw her.. I laid there under the stars. staring.. Trying to figure out if I should just move on.. Give up on this place called SL. I already had irons in the fire though.. I couldn't just work so hard to better myself, then throw it all away. Then poof there she was, standing in front of me, offering me her hand, I sat up, we just talked.. and talked.. It was glorious :) I had to go for some reason.. everything is a blur from that point..My heart pounded, my mind raced.. We shared so much in such a short amount of time.. But I was scared for anything, but she was always there for me.. with open arms.. Never once backing down..or turning her back on me.. Then one day we met, just to hang out, and she totally blew me away.. She told me she had loved me... loved me all along.. I had no idea.. Or was to scared to see it.. But once she said it, I knew it was the truth, and that I had the same feelings.. Danielle.. I love you too!! I love you with all that I am. Our souls have connected, on so many levels. I cannot imagine my life without you now.. You have made me the happiest, proudest woman alive!! The moral of this rambling.. Everything happens for a reason, and nothing is by chance..